I lied.

I'll do my lens review on the weekend. I'm completely exhausted when I get home from school. x.x

Guess what I got?

I finally received my lenses from Honeycolor.com! 

After three months of waiting (my fault for putting the address wrong the first time (oops)), I finally get to see how my Chocolate Brown lenses look on me. c:

I'll be posting a review probably tomorrow after school so I can see how they feel after an eight hour period so I can rate the comfort (I already have an idea on how to rate the color and enlargement so yeah).

Geo Princess Mimi Apple Green (Bambi) Review from FobbyBarbie.com

I'm sure many people have reviewed these since their debut but honestly I don't care because I'm doing these for fun. I have A LOT to say since it's my first review. (─‿‿─)

Note: I use my dad's tablet to take pictures so they're not high quality and I didn't take all the pictures in different lighting that I needed so I'll post what I have.

Info on the lenses

Brand (Manufacturer): Geo Medical.

Lens Name: Geo Princess Mimi Apple Green from the Bambi Series (WMM-303) 

Diameter: 15.00 mm

Base Curve: 8.7

Weight: 100.00 g 

Origin: South Korea

Duration: 1 year

Here are the few photos I took (I took very few closeups and no flash photos)

Outdoor lighting without makeup

Outdoor lighting with makeup

(or whatever crappy/little makeup I put on in five minutes)

Inside without makeup

Outside without makeup

Inside with makeup

Outside with makeup

Don't I look so kawaii? (◕‿◕✿) (no? ok.)

Review

Packaging: I'm not rating the packaging I'm just talking about it since I don't have visuals of it. It came in a sealed envelope-like packaging with bubble wrap on the inside.. which I took apart and started popping.

 (゜▽゜;)

The lens came in vials which were also sealed in bubble wrap (more for me to pop ლ(́◉◞౪◟◉‵ლ) )

It also came with a normal lens case (versus other websites who do those cute animal cases but I'm not complaining). 

In total, the packaging is very safe so customers from Fobby Barbie have nothing to worry about. C:

Color (and Design): 10/10 - For my first circle lenses, I'm fairly pleased. The color is as expected so I'm not complaining about how dark the green is on me. After all, I do have DARK DARK DARK brown eyes. Like most lenses, they leave a lot of space for your pupils, making your natural eye color fade into the lenses' color. Except in my case my natural eye color and pupil are not far in color so it looks like I have one huge pupil in these lenses. Basically, I look high.

Enlargement: 10/10 - I'm still debating how to rate the enlargement. I would say 9.5/10 because on me these lenses need something to compliment them to make them not look so.. frog-like. *3* Like, glasses, makeup, or straight bangs/fringe (which I do have but I swept them to the side for photos). My mum says they look natural, and these look very natural on other people who said they look unnatural/frog-like. So I guess it's just my viewpoint that effects it. And as I said before, considering my dark eyes and pupil blend in it makes me look very high. ｡◕‿◕｡

Comfort: 9.5/10 - I haven't worn contacts in a while and these were really good to me. Only problem I had is having it feel like something was there (but this feeling only occurred on the upper eyelid of my right eye). I heard Geo had thick lenses and to some were really uncomfortable but I mostly didn't notice a thing. And they didn't get dry within the many hours I wore them.

d=(´▽｀)=b

Overall: 10/10 - These are my first pair of circle lenses and I love them so much. I can't wait to receive and try on the brown ones in this series. ლ(́◉◞౪◟◉‵ლ)

About FobbyBarbie.Com

As previously stated, I did not buy these. I won them from Reina's giveaway (her other blog on tumblr is here) therefore I know very little about FobbyBarbie.com and its service. I do know that through express mail I received these quickly. She ordered them I believe late of last week or early this week??? I also know that FobbyBarbie has a great variety of circle lenses and at good, cheap prices and have sales constantly.

Click here to check out fobbybarbie.com and it's great deals!

Guess what?

I finally received my circle lenses!

Actually, it's only one of the pairs I won from a giveaway. Since their shipped individuality instead of together in one package I should get the other ones tomorrow (Monday).

As for the ones I ordered, they're taking forever in a day. ;-;

I guess I'll do a review for the ones I got since I wore them the whole day????

No video though because my webcam has shitty quality.

And unfortunately no pictures because I used my dad's tablet and I mostly took face pictures instead of close up eye pictures. 

Meh.

That bit of me hasn't been shared on my tumblr nor any other blog yet. I chose to have it here where barely any people would see it.

Everything's not alright and I would rather...

Hello. Even though I've been posting for a while and I have no followers yet, I want to give a proper introduction of myself. 

My name is Ruby Nichole Guardiola. I am fifteen years old, going on sixteen this year on May 30th. I have (self-diagnosed) anxiety problems and depression. I know that you may think that it being self-diagnosed it's not reliable and nothing really serious but we may never know. I haven't gone to the doctors for anything yet. No therapist. No psychologist. Nothing. It's just me living in my own shitty world. 

I know a few of you older people are saying, "it's just teen angst" or "it's just a phase."

I have been disgusted and embarrassed by my weight since I was in Kindergarten, if I recall correctly. Can you imagine being so young and starting to dislike yourself so much? Over time, the hatred I had for myself built up. I remember constantly being asked by my grandma to lose weight/go on a diet/exercise/etc. She didn't mean it in a bad way; she just wanted me to be healthy. Either way, it got me down and it still does when I think about it. I didn't feel good enough. Eventually it got worst. It wasn't just me being fat that got to me. My face is ugly. My hair is just, bleh. My skin is terrible. I hate the way I have dark pigmentation between my breasts and inner thighs. I hate how fat my arms were. I hate how I had a wart on my nose and now I hate how I have a scar from removing the wart. I hate my teeth. I hate my rolls. I hate my personality. I hate how I'm not doing good enough in school. I hate how I'm not nearly as talented as other people. I just hate a lot of things about me.

This hate effected me so much that I resorted to self-harming. I began self-harming a little after fifth grade. They were just small cuts using a knife. Knives didn't do much damage yet they did leave marks on the skin for days. Eventually I began using razors from box cutters. They were still fairly small cuts, but a lot of small cuts. Eventually I learned a new technique for the blade to go in deeper, making scars last longer on the skin. These were just on my wrists. I began cutting my thighs when I was fourteen. I have cut words into my thighs many times. At a point, I have cut my stomach. I have not used the self harm methods of burning and bruising myself yet. I still to this point self harm. 

I often attempt to starve myself. Whenever I fail at doing so, I hate myself so much; sometimes I cut because the shame I feel from failing at starving myself.

I have not attempted suicide once. I'm too much of a coward. Also, I care too much about what others will feel when I'm gone. It hurts me thinking about how my friends Taylor, Inri, Loren, Janeht, and my family would feel if I succeeded in my escape. 

Notice how I use the word escape.

I was only bullied up until middle school; that's when it stopped. It didn't matter if it continued or not; the damage was done.

I'm now in high school and I'm basically a loner. I started off being in a huge social group but after realizing how hard it is being with people you can't trust, my number of friends decreased. I would also like to add that at a point my depression nearly ended my friendship with my best friend Taylor. Taylor and I both started out the same way. We had the same outlook on life and the people in it. Towards the end of the year, she became more happier, or at least she began to smile more instead of openly frown. In her happy conversations about her getting hit on or her making a new friend, I'd say something and it would just bring the whole conversation down and she'd get mad at me. So, I kept my distance. It's a new school year and everything's fine again. Except this year I only have three to five friends. I refer to certain good acquaintances    as "friends" though for short (plus it's not like those people don't mean anything to me, I just don't have a special bond with them like I do with Taylor, Loren, and Inri). 

On the topic of Inri, I only met him last summer (which were my worst days) and he's helped me through some shit without him actually knowing. He just has this really bright and joyful personality. It's like when I'm around him or when I talk to him on the phone his happiness just kinda runs off of him and into me. He's what I needed in my life and I'm so grateful for him being there. As cheesey as this may sound: He's the light in my darkness.

To summarize my anxiety problems: I can't be around a huge group of people without feeling like the whole weight of the world is on my shoulders. I can't walk around in public without feeling like people are talking shit about me. I can't do well in school without feeling like a complete failure. I constantly get anxiety/panic attacks.

This is not all of what lead me to be this way.
Even though I've been through less than what other's has gone through, doesn't mean I don't suffer the same way. It's still painful. It hurts. A lot. I'm trying to cope but sometimes I can't. I contemplate suicide a lot (but then my dumb ass realizes that I don't know how to commit suicide/I don't have the "tools" for it). I can't help it. It's gotten to the point where even the person I care for the most can't even stop me from cutting. But I stay on this world anyway.

I stay because I'm hoping that there's hope for me, if that makes sense.

I want to do so much good.

I like to sing. I can't write songs for shit yet but I can practice and learn.

I want to help people, even if I can't help myself.

I want to be somebody's inspiration. 

No matter what, I want to save someone's life, with or without music. 

I just want to mean something. Not to something huge to the world, but to people. 

Maybe that'll be my escape. 

I hope people don't think I'm a giveaway blog

I'm trying to get reviews together, I promise. I just need my circle lenses soon. ;-; I might do review on the ones I ordered from Honeycolor even though there's so many on the pair I ordered and the ones I got for free from fobbybarbie (there's actually so few reviews from the two pairs I got)

Everyone should love China Glaze *-*

I know I do.

Hollyandpolish is having a giveaway for a set of China Glaze nail polish - The Avant Garden collection

Click here to find out how you can enter

PINKY'S FIRST GIVEAWAY!

cupofpinktea is holding an international giveaway filled with kawaii items (as shown above)!

Click here to find out how you can enter to win.

Good luck!

Cries softly

I should be doing my homowork but instead I'm getting distracted by the internet. (╯︵╰,)
And I'm patiently waiting for my circle lenses to arrive. 
"Patiently"

Boo, you whore.

I want my circle lenses NOW.

*sobs silently*

Right now I'm doing my AP World History homoework but I'm constantly getting distracted. D: The internet is a very wonderful place with many things to do.

Random post

My back hurts.

What to do with this blog

All I've been doing is promoting giveaways, talking about my new circle lenses, and reviewing home remedies (which I should do often).
I wanna review my lenses nowwww >-<
I have to wait for them to get here. Sad face.

MISSKATV'S GIVEAWAY!

Misskatv is hosting a wonderful giveaway.

The giveaway will have three winners, all receiving a Jealousness Liquid Eyeliner Pen and some other goodie depending on the winner (as shown above).

Click here to see how to enter

I really don't know how to edit my blog omfg

I'm such a newb. Halp

COCO-COLADA-COCO'S GYARU GIVE AWAY!

Coco-colada-coco is doing a second gyaru giveaway. 

What is she giving away?

1. gyaru brush (meiyiting no. 828)
2.  cute bear wallet
3.  nail art (fing'rs)
4. cute necklace with key (sixx)
5.  little mirror for your bag
6.  ideal finish mousse (nivea 05 apricot)
7. tanning wipes (3x)
8.  stay all day longlasting (essence 10 soft beige)
9.  smooth effect (maxfactor 75 golden)
10.  fake lashes (diamond lashes nature no. 4)
11.  belle color (garnier 111 extra bright ash blonde)
12.  eyelash glue (ipd korean brand)

This giveaway ends March 31st, 2013 so go click here and follow the instructions on the post to enter!

Good luck!

Patiently waiting for my circle lenses to come in the mail

*DYING WHALE NOISE*

Want free circle lenses?

Solution-lens.com does a giveaway every month for a pair of circle lenses. 

March's giveaway is currently on-going. 

To enter, click here and follow the directions on the page. Good luck~!

I'm getting my circle lenses soon!

So I ordered a pair of circle lenses, like, over a month ago. I had issues with the shipping because I was one digit off when entering the shipping address. >-< Oopsies.

BUUUUTTT all of that is fixed now!

I also recently won a giveaway recently~ 

Speaking of that: you should check out this chick's blog. I won her giveaway from February. She's sweet and she'll be expecting a little one soon. Her tumblr is also a great quality blog.

Anywhore...

These are the circle lenses I'll be getting

These are Geo Bambi Chocolate (Princess Mimi) from Honeycolor.com

I ordered them in the biggest size they have (I believe they're the only size you can select) which is 15.00 mm in diameter so they're huge considering they're the first pair of circle lenses I've ever had/ordered. On every video review I've seen, they look absolutely stunning. I don't think I'll do a video review on them considering there's so many BUT I might just post one for fun on my blogs. 

So since I won a giveaway (40$ for circle lenses = two pairs of circle lenses) I asked for Geo Bambi Green Apple (Princess Mimi) from fobbybarbie.com. Diameter is also 15.00 mm. 

Have I mentioned how much I really adore the Princess Mimi / Bambi series? I had a hard time deciding whether I should get Green Apple or Grey because they're both so pretty. I decided on green because I was hoping they show good on my dark dark brown eyes versus how the grey would look.

Also from fobbybarbie.com I asked for i-Fairy Ruby Red. As I was typing the name of these lenses I was searching for their diameter (it's not shown on the website) and I just found out that they're 16.2 mm. So, yeah. They're pretty dynamic looking on other people and really huge. I'm sure I'll be pleased with these. 

So this is just a preview of the starting of my circle lenses collection. I just found out the "mall" (is it a mall? Idk. It's like an Asian superstore with other stores in it.) down my street has a store that sells circle lenses. These lenses go up to 17.00 mm so I'm willing to go check that out one day. 

Why

I have no idea what to do with this blog. I seriously don't use it often. x.x